and I regret it but I know it’s for the best. I can’t be with someone who doesn’t try. It’ll just make me depressed, and if I stay and he keeps laughing at me I’ll probably end up saying things that are really hurtful to him.
He thinks he is dumb, but he doesn’t realise it is the depression. When a person gets depressed they lose 1,000+ words in their vocabulary. When a person gets depressed it is difficult for them to focus on one thing. The more stressed and depressed someone is, the harder it is for them to remember things. I don’t know how to tell him this, maybe I’ll just show him this blog?
It feels like your brain is deteriorating because you are used to being able to function at a certain level and the depression and stress are throwing everything off. Trust me though your brain is not deteriorating and you are mot becoming stupid. Depression can affect every aspect of a persons life. No area of a persons life is immune from the symptoms of depression.
In other news, I feel myself becoming thinner each and every day. I’m not at the stage where anyone can really notice the changes, but I feel it. I hate that I love Ana.
I have this issue that I have no idea on how to resolve. It’s to do with my boyfriend and my insecurities. It upsets me that he has never once pointed out a girl that looks anything like me and said they were attractive. He mentions other girls, girls with qualities I do not want or have, and that is all well and good but sometimes I feel like I need to change to impress him, and that makes me angry.
He never feels the need to make himself or his house nice for me. He never feels the need to impress me, and I think that it’s needed in a healthy relationship. I think people need to feel secure and wanted, where as I feel like he’s with me because he thinks nobody else would want him.
He makes jokes about no other girl wanting him, and it makes me sit here and think I’m just the bottom of the barrel. Sometimes I think about breaking up with him over it, but how could I dump someone because of my own insecurities?
It’s not his fault that he isn’t blown away every time he sees me. It’s not his fault that he could do much better.
Obscene.
(via applec0caine)
